time flies.

3rd month of the year.

it's march now.

did nothing much this few days beside slacking and wasting time.

feelings that i had for the past few nights were not right.

no drive to do anything.

i just wish to stop everything and slack my way thru.

laughs and smiles are getting more and more unreal.

i know nothing much about myself.

i don't understand myself now.

don't ask me why.

keeping quiet doesn't mean i am sad or what,

i just want to slow down my pace and hear and see the surrounding more.

i smile every hour, doesn't mean i am happy.

i laugh every single day, doesn't mean i am feeling great.

all the smiles and laughs are just there to cover all my sorrows.

deep inside my heart i am feeling uneasy.

it's hard to be me.